Have Hope! " He is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than we would dare to ask or hope". Eph. 3:20
We have traveled the path of infertility and adoption and we have arrived on the mountaintop from the depth of the valley.
In 1992 my husband and I started our plight to have a family. Infertility was a totally unexpected curve in the road. I was immediately anxious when our first few months of "attempts" did not bring a pregnancy. By the time a year had passed, I was completely desperate! My every thought revolved around having a baby...who was pregnant...and WHO wasn't. I withdrew from social events because I was afraid I might see a pregnant woman. They seemed to be "planted" everywhere! I was seething with anger and bitterness...so much that I began to resent my own nephews and nieces. I didn't ever want to see them on holidays. Anger and blame entered our marriage. What I didn't know then, is that there is no blame! God gives infertility to a couple, not to a person! God's plan was not to harm us! "They are plans for good and not for disaster; to give you a future and hope. Jer. 29:11
I remember crying in bed one night as my husband returned from our small group Bible study. He told me, "the group suggested that we read Romans 8:28". "All things work together for the good to those who love God and are called according to His purpose"! I was infuriated by that verse and I cried out "tell me how not having a baby could possibly bring any good!"
Well Folks...that verse has become one of my mainstays in this life. Through infertility and four IVF cycles, God brought a couple to their knees. He taught us lessons on His sovereignty, submission, patience, trust, listening to His voice, and the beauty of His creations!
In 1996 we adopted our first son, Jordan, followed by two more sons. Jacob in 1998 and Joshua in 1999. Calculate that! Three beautiful boys in 3 1/2 years! YES! He is able to do exceedingly abundantly more than we dare to ask or hope! Eph 3:20. And His Sheep do know His voice! "My sheep recognize my voice; I know them and they follow me." John 9:27.
We are eagerly looking forward to the two girls God has ordained for this family. We submit joyfully to who, what, when, where and how our babies will come. Knowing that God's plan indeed is so much better than ours!
"He will give beauty for ashes, joy instead of mourning and praise instead of despair." Is 61:3